I have become very picky about the people I want in my life; I will not accept negative, angry, or mean people in my life, it too precious for me to waste time with these energies.
There was a man I knew who tried to get closer to me than a friend. He worked as a Healer, he knew a lot about Native American practices and herbs, and told me that he has walked through the childrens' ward at LA County Hospital sending out healing energy; all a plus in my book. I was starting to become interested in him, at a very vulnerable time in my life. But the more he spoke, the more I realized he was an angry person. He never really showed his anger, he just spoke it; everything made him angry. And if he was not angry he would have a passive aggressive attitude to push my buttons, even when I pointed out to him that the subject he would be talking about was too raw and sensitive for me, he would not stop. I understood this person needed to have conflict in his life, it was a choice he made and I severed the friendship.
Another male friend in my life told me he did not have any self worth, indirectly. I would mention to him a conversation I had with someone earlier in the day, and before I could go into what the conversation was, he would interrupt me and tell me how much he disliked that person. It did not matter who it was, he never had anything good to say about anybody. Which no onlt ruins conversations, it also is very difficult for me to be around these people. It is exhausting. But they have taught me to pay attenion to words. You can get to know more about a person if you just listen to "what" they are saying.
It goes for the good, also. Another man I know uses peaceful, loving words, and it shows in his personality. He is someone I enjoy being around.
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