Inner Peace

As I prayed for many years for Inner Peace, I held the pain inside me. I was fighting what I wanted the most; to release my pain. It was too painful to feel, to think about, and in some cases, to remember. My body was taking the toll; I was damaging myself on the inside and feeling horrible, but kept on going as I was. Doctors were not helping, they just gave me pills. I do not like pills, I do not like to be drugged, I wanted to be healed, and that is what I started praying for; to be Healed. There was no way for me to know the compete effect of what I was asking for, and unless you really have nothing to lose, like I did, walking to the gates of hell and back, which is what I did, is what to expect. You will find pain that your brain has hidden from you; to protect you until you are ready to face it, you will revisit issues you thought were resolved, and none of it will be easy. Your family and friends will not understand what you are going through, but you must do it. You just have to. And when you do, your body, mind, and spirit will finally be at Peace. Your prayers will be answered and you will see things so differenty; what you thought was important before, will no longer matter, and your priorities will now change for the better. You be lighter in every way, and your seeing clearer. And all that is needed is to let go of what no longer belongs to you, what is no longer a reality. Is it worth reliving the pain? Of course! The pain is already with you all the time. By healing it, you are letting it go, so it no longer consumes you. It is GONE! Not bogging you down every day, gone. I can honestl say; Yes, the healing is so worth it!

Channeled 12.15.14

The times are changing for the better. The shift has occured and now we ridding ourselves of ridgid, fundamentalist ways of thinking and living. There will be more fluidity and spontaneity from like-minded individuals.There will be more freedom of being human, less restrictions and fear. There will more shared Love. These are the ways of the new world being. It is time for a great healing, by all. Do not fret the past, move into a state of joy and let the past dissolve; do not let it occupy your being any longer. Go in Peace.

Numbers

I noticed a woman's book about numbers; she is studying numbers and their history. It was a fascinating subject for me, as numbers are more important to me, and the universe, than quanitity and balancing a cheecking account. Since I am the least scientific person there is, signs (from weather, animals, insects, plants and dreams) are more clear to me than trying to figure out algebra. A scientific approach is to use numbers to answer questions or prove theories, and if a positive conclusion cannot be found, the answer or theories must be false. (Which makes me wonder; how it is that a person, a human, could possibly think they could duplicate "God" creations.) But an intuitive approach is to let the numbers speak to you, and listen, with an open mind, what they are revealing. There is no need to understand where the information is coming from, or why it is coming. That does not matter. What matters are the messages that come; each number has specific meanings, and when applied to specific situations or places, etc, the information that comes is infinite; the answes are there for the taking.  

I made it!

I heard the saying, "Fake it, til you mke it," for the first time in 2007. The phrase came up in a discussion group and just hearing it durprised me. When the people there told me it actually worked, it surprised me even more. If you are not able to "feel" happy, content, or whatever the goal is, fake it, until you feel it. Faking it seems to convince the mind it is the normal way of being, and then it becomes the normal way to be. So many changes occured in my life, I was afraid to see what was going to happen next. My injuries were so debilitating; there was no way for me to know what I would be capable of. So much healing, and major unknowns, to go through. My guidance has always been around me, so I faked my confidence, and happiness. I could not even say "I am just grateful to be alive!" because I did not know why I was alive. I just trusted blindly that everything I am going through would be worth the pain. Now I made it; I get it, all of it. The answers I have been looking for on how to move forward, how will I make a living, and why did I survive have been answered, Not only are the answers here, but I can feel the righteousness in them. They have given me peace of mind, instead of waiting for something else to blind-side me. It took seven years, but I finally made it!