I made it!

I heard the saying, "Fake it, til you mke it," for the first time in 2007. The phrase came up in a discussion group and just hearing it durprised me. When the people there told me it actually worked, it surprised me even more. If you are not able to "feel" happy, content, or whatever the goal is, fake it, until you feel it. Faking it seems to convince the mind it is the normal way of being, and then it becomes the normal way to be. So many changes occured in my life, I was afraid to see what was going to happen next. My injuries were so debilitating; there was no way for me to know what I would be capable of. So much healing, and major unknowns, to go through. My guidance has always been around me, so I faked my confidence, and happiness. I could not even say "I am just grateful to be alive!" because I did not know why I was alive. I just trusted blindly that everything I am going through would be worth the pain. Now I made it; I get it, all of it. The answers I have been looking for on how to move forward, how will I make a living, and why did I survive have been answered, Not only are the answers here, but I can feel the righteousness in them. They have given me peace of mind, instead of waiting for something else to blind-side me. It took seven years, but I finally made it!