I have spent the past few years ending a battle within myself of what I want to be doing, what I should be doing, and what I am able to do. My patient Guides have lovingly allowed me to go through the process of finding myself as I made my way through this magnificent transformation. I am accepting that the battle is no longer a battle if I continue to relax, trust, and have faith that the way my life is unfolding is the right way for me. It is during these times that I have my moments of clarity, and this morning was very pivotal:
This morning was a "moment of clarity" morning as I started conversing with my Guides about the boundaries we all unintentionally set around the things we really want in life. The images I saw and heard were of women who make lists of the qualities they want in a man. They list everything they could think of that they want, then they make a list of the things they do not want in the same man. They "manifest" a man in their lives. However, on more than one occassion, I have heard, "but I did not put that he be closer to my age, and he is so much younger than I am." Or, "I should have put down that I did not want someone who smoked."
It is the unknown qualities in human beings that made me hesitate to take this process seriously for me. And now I realize why; it is ego that gives us the courage to say we know what is better for ourselves than the Universe. We know we would not like the man who is 3 inches shorter than us, even though the Universe has been trying to tell us that this man, who is 3 inches shorter, is your Soul Mate. We know better, our ego told us so, and we could never be happy with a Soul Mate who not at least 6'3". By writing what we want to manifest, we define our boundaries of what we allow to come us from the Universe, and we can not understand why we are alone. As I realize the abundance and beauty the Universe has to offer, I also realize how careful I must be when I ask for help, or prayers. I have learned to ask for "the best man for me," and in the process have been exceptionally aware of all the worst men for me, and have been able to keep them at bay, and have learned how to protect myself from them. I believe I am in the process of knowing this "best man" and am glad of the route I have taken.
A conversation I had this morning with a friend/co-worker was about more boundaries and filters. He mentioned how his reactions to people's comments are misinterpreted. He says he makes a judgement by thinking it out loud and then people take what he is saying as an insult. I told him he has no filter, and I have done this also. His judgement is for him to understand the boundaries that he must set within the relationship with this person. It is information for him to use as a foundation, and he will have this opportunity to do this with every relationship he has. He made a comment that he does not want to be filtered, otherwise he would be putting on a "facade," and I totally understand where he is coming from, as I felt the same way, if I can not be who I am than I am not being true to myself. But I learned that being true to myself is knowing who is safe in my life and who is not. Some people are safe for some things, and some are safe for others. A very important lesson I have learned is just because someone is family, does not make them safe! These people are teachers in our lives, teaching us how to set filters and boundaries as we define our own self-worth and learn what and who we will allow in our lives that will help us left our vibration levels so we can help others raise theirs.
Everything in life is a lesson, but this is another subject for another time.
munay,
Chele
